not much to report

just got back from doing 4 1/2 miles with the double jogger. The thing totals 75 pounds with the two girls. Trying to think of a running goal for spring any ideas ?

Job for a day

So for the past 2 weeks i have been applying to work . I didn't think I would find something so soon. Maybe late winter early spring but I knew I should start looking. I had basically told all my contacts I was done with the business but now that we decided to stay I thought I needed to find work and let them know I wanted to be back in the biz. I got a call Friday night from a Executive looking for a Production Manager for a new cooking show. She wanted to meet me Monday she was very busy and could not answer any questions at that time . I went in Monday morning had about a 10 minute interview. In which I explained I was a new mom , (they were moms too) Said I could work from home sometimes and basically offered me the job. The money was amazing , which was my first clue, It was as good as Colbert . They wanted me to start Tuesday , I asked for Wednesday start and they said fine as long as I could come to a tech meeting on Tuesday for 1 hour. OK . Oh and I told them I was breastfeeding , no problem we have an office you can pump in and a fridge. Wow , wow wow. Money , some time at home , good hours , nice people . The commute to the office was 1 hour door to door but in Jan we would move to Greenpoint in Brooklyn and if I drove it would be about 25 minutes . Wow Wow .


Then Tuesday morning around 5am I woke up and laid in bed. Something is not right , This is a start up (meaning a whole new show) the money is really good . I went to the office . Immediately one of the woman said I doubt you will be able to work from home things are really hectic we only have 2 weeks to get this show in the studio. Just to give you an example I started in mid July to launch Colbert Oct 17 2005. Then they give me the budget and then say in a whisper make a quick copy of this. See the guy over there he is the Production Manager on the show now but after the meeting we are going to fire him . We are telling him you are the coordinator . As I started to feel sick to my stomach I went to the copier . I looked at the budget and noted there was no coordinator line (so I assumed he did not have a copy of the budget yet) then I noted there was no EIC (executive in charge or even a line producer ) Then it hit me I was the production dept . There was the 2 executive producers and me . I have never worked on a show with 1 person in the production dept . There also was no show accountant which meant all start paper work payroll would be through be as well as accounting for all purchase orders .

Then the Production Manager came over and said I understand you are my new coordinator. First off the guy was super nice not upset at all that they had hired a coordinator he never even got to interview. I would be if I were him as the PM and PC really have to work well together and trust each other. Also he said he heard I just had a baby and he had a 9 year old son. Oh can you excuse as I went in the bathroom and literally got sick (in every way , sorry for the TMI) ok so now the meeting starts . And I sit next to the PM , he does really well and he actually knew more about equipment then me . I am sitting there thinking 1. this job is a bit over my head 2. I am never going to see my family until May . I was shaking during the meeting . Oh and before the meeting I asked where the room was I could pump in . It was the executive's office which meant I would have had to ask her to leave her office 3 times a day . Of course until we moved to Brooklyn then who knows what was out there. But there is no way she would be able to leave her office 3 times a day with all this going on.

So after the meeting I talked to the executive . I said you need a Strong Line producer for this . Have I lined produced a show . Yes once a 13 episode cooking show. And the facility we shot in had a engineer this one did not . They expected me to build a control room . The show is hosted by 3 women they only had 1 casted . Jan 5th start date to shoot and holidays coming. No set yet, 1 set design, they did have a crew but no rundowns , scripts or a real schedule of load in. She assured me that I would be fine but I said when I interviewed you said the hours would be x y z and there is no way . And she said "well we just really wanted you" So I came home , crying the whole way on the subway, I was angry at myself because I should have known better and I was also angry that they misrepresented the job. I came home and cried and cried to Marc. Who of course said I think you should take it , you will be able to come home at a decent hour . I said there is no way. He said have them put in your contract that you get to come home a few days a week at 6pm and you will work from home . THis is similar to Colbert although Colbert was established so it was rare I worked more then 1 night from home . So I emailed her , the answer was no that more likely I would leave work at 8pm . I was a mess there is no way I could continue breastfeeding which those hours , no place to pump. I know what you are thinking that in this economy I need to take what I could get but I can never get this time back. So I called her and told her I could not take the job. So yes I turned down a 6 figure job basically to breastfeed and spend time with my kids. Marc was not happy but eventually understood. I said you would not be able to run at all at night and that quieted him down .

I called a couple of mentors and they all basically said Kate something else will come along later when you are ready . Did I burn a bridge , I hope not . Will we survive , short term yes. I guess I am just not ready to go back to work. I mean with Rory I did when she was 7 weeks but I was able to come home after rehearsal started so i was home by 6 or 6:30 .

but because of all this I lost 6 pounds so I am only about 4 or 5 pounds away from pre prego weight.

So tell me am I crazy?