You are not going to believe this but I just got an email from one of the two doctors left at my OBGYN practice (the one I really liked) that she left the practice!! So after crying my eyes out Marc got on the phone and got her cell # and called her up. Basically she wants me to come with her to her new practice at St. Vincent's but wont be back in town till Thursday to see me . OR I can stay with Dr. K who is now a single practice doctor (One of the main reasons I left my old doctor ) Oh and if this sounds like familiar , it is because the other doctor I really liked at this practice jumped ship in August. So basically if I go into labor in the next 72 hours I am to go to St. Vincent's ( a hospital I have never been to or pre registered at ) tell them I am her patient and hope they allow me in. Hopefully her asst can switch my insurance and get my records tomorrow . Not today. You know because of the sacred holiday of Columbus !!!!
Oh and I did a ton of research before I switched in July and this was the best group practice for VBACs for Lennox Hill and recommended by a ton of people. But apparently the practice was in shambles. And Dr. W the one I like told Dr. K . that she was leaving at the end of the year on Friday and he told her to get out now ! so that is great for his patients like me . The only reason I even found out was that I sent her an email this morning that nothing was going on and I was depressed and to ask if she would let me go later in my date then Dr. K or if 1 week was the cut off for both of them .
WHAT A SUMMER !! I can't take anymore!
Oh and Sara IT IS TOTALLY in my mind for sure , even deeper then fearing another C section. We must go and have wine after this LOL.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
The Road taken twice
Right now I hate my body and I hate myself. Why is my body not normal ,? Why can't I go into labor? What is wrong with me ? I have done everything but I know that they will section me again . I know it . Unless I run away , which I am considering . And that will be the end of my childbearing . I will never go through this again only to be cut open at the end . How can I have lost my plug and have bloody show and still be sitting here. I feel like a failure . Our neighbors, friends and my doulas are all waiting , calling , emailing . What is going on ? Not a thing. Not a thing are you sure ? Yes nothing. I am angry , I am sad and I hate myself because I am not normal . My body lets me down .
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
39 weeks pregnant shot
This was the day I lost my plug . As of now nothing going on! RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Thursday, October 9, 2008
B*tches get things done!
I dont know if you saw it but last spring SNL had Tina Fey and Amy Poeller reporting on Weekend update. They were talking about how Obama was starting to pull ahead of Hilary and that the reason is people saw her as a B*tch. And Amy Poeller says "Damn right she's a B*tch , B*tches get things done !"http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/02/24/snls-campaign-trail-fau_n_88160.html I loved that line . Anyway on Tuesday I finally met the woman Doctor at the OBGYN practice I go to. I was supposed to see her a few weeks ago but she had an emergency. Anyway she was GREAT!! So kind, so positive about VBACs. I hope she is the one to deliver the baby. Anyway she asked me if Dr. K had done a internal last week. Yes and I was not dilated. She said ok lets take a look. Now I have had A LOT of internal exams , officially and unofficially HAHAHA! but NOTHING LIKE THIS. I am pretty sure she had both hands up my Va-jay-jay and was making a sandwich. Anyway she got to my cervix and told me that it was still closed I was pretty sad . And then she said "Kate I am going to put my fingers through your cervix" "Ok lets see if that helps. " So I left pretty sad . I mean every doctor after an internals says "YOu might experience some bleeding " but I NEVER DO . So I had another appt in the city about 2 hours later . So I walked around the upper east side . Stopped in a childrens boutique bought stuff I can' t afford for Rory . Anyway I had some contractions but nothing to get excited about. Went home went to bed pretty discouraged. BUT in the morning I woke up and had lost my mucus plug and had a bit of bloody show !!! So here is to B*tches . Myself, My doctor and the one inside me . Lets all work together to GET THIS DONE!!!
Also if you know my parents PLEASE DONT TELL THEM they will want to book a flight or call every hour and I can't handle it right now . No offense to them but they have to PLAN everything !
Also if you know my parents PLEASE DONT TELL THEM they will want to book a flight or call every hour and I can't handle it right now . No offense to them but they have to PLAN everything !
Thursday, October 2, 2008
VBAC
I feel like I have to post about this. I have gotten a lot of emails, phone calls and parents at the park warning me about having a VBAC. For every 1 person who says good luck I have 5 that says "Oh that is dangerous or you should worry about your baby first. Ummmm first off. For me because of my health, age and the type of C section I had it is actually less dangerous for me and the baby to have a VBAC then a second c section. Ok that is all I have to say about that. Do research before you email or call and say what I am doing is wrong.
Now questions
Sara: Yes I do have a doula this time around !! I actually have 5 . It is a group of doula acupuncturists . (all by the way with masters degrees LOL) These are serious women and wonderful. Basically if I am lucky to go into labor on my own then I call the "bat phone" They will come over and help me labor at home, give me acupuncture, relieve Marc and let us know when it is time to go to the hospital. I also go to them once a week for acupuncture . One of them came to the house and sat with Marc and I for 3 hours and went over everything we want. So far it has been great I wish my labor nurse with Rory (Donna) could be my doula/midwife (shout out to you Donna!) she is the best and one of the reasons I am going to Lenox Hill again . I also like these women because they are not aggressive . They respect nurses and doctors and have assured me they are not there to override any decesions made just ot support myself and Marc .
Salty:
Salty first COngrats on your Marathon relay. Please go here to read about the amazing team of pregnant runners that she put together http://notpeppery.blogspot.com/. I wish I could have done it but i just to close to delivery. I was overdue with Rory and basically they induced me with cerverdel the day after Christmas. After 12 hours on my back with no Real contractions the cevrerdel was taken out and I was told I would have to have a c section . My doctor (at the time , I have switched doctors now) said I had to have a c section . He went to have dinner and I went into labor , He came back and was surprised but broke my water and allowed me to labor. At around 1am I was 3 cm he came back at 3am and said I had not progressed and that a c section was necessary. My husband asked about pitocin and was told rather nastily that my uterus was to exhausted and that it would not help. I have since done a lot of research and I feel that because my doctor was a single practice doctor and he wanted to see his patients the following day that he rushed to a c section. I am grateful for the beautiful baby that he did deliver but i feel he did not give me a real chance. Maybe 12 hours later it would have ended in the same situation but I was never given a real chance to labor . I was in labor from around 8:00pm-3am . Salty as a side note all research shows running thru a pregnancy decrease the chances for a c section and also an other interventions. I have slowed my running down to about 6 miles a week as per my doulas advice and I am focusing on more stretching and walking. But this is just me . I know women that run a race and then ran to the hospital from the finish line and gave birth. So don't worry.
Oh and yes I am watching the debate and typing this becasue I can't watch it with my full attention or I am afriad my water will break early.
Now questions
Sara: Yes I do have a doula this time around !! I actually have 5 . It is a group of doula acupuncturists . (all by the way with masters degrees LOL) These are serious women and wonderful. Basically if I am lucky to go into labor on my own then I call the "bat phone" They will come over and help me labor at home, give me acupuncture, relieve Marc and let us know when it is time to go to the hospital. I also go to them once a week for acupuncture . One of them came to the house and sat with Marc and I for 3 hours and went over everything we want. So far it has been great I wish my labor nurse with Rory (Donna) could be my doula/midwife (shout out to you Donna!) she is the best and one of the reasons I am going to Lenox Hill again . I also like these women because they are not aggressive . They respect nurses and doctors and have assured me they are not there to override any decesions made just ot support myself and Marc .
Salty:
Salty first COngrats on your Marathon relay. Please go here to read about the amazing team of pregnant runners that she put together http://notpeppery.blogspot.com/. I wish I could have done it but i just to close to delivery. I was overdue with Rory and basically they induced me with cerverdel the day after Christmas. After 12 hours on my back with no Real contractions the cevrerdel was taken out and I was told I would have to have a c section . My doctor (at the time , I have switched doctors now) said I had to have a c section . He went to have dinner and I went into labor , He came back and was surprised but broke my water and allowed me to labor. At around 1am I was 3 cm he came back at 3am and said I had not progressed and that a c section was necessary. My husband asked about pitocin and was told rather nastily that my uterus was to exhausted and that it would not help. I have since done a lot of research and I feel that because my doctor was a single practice doctor and he wanted to see his patients the following day that he rushed to a c section. I am grateful for the beautiful baby that he did deliver but i feel he did not give me a real chance. Maybe 12 hours later it would have ended in the same situation but I was never given a real chance to labor . I was in labor from around 8:00pm-3am . Salty as a side note all research shows running thru a pregnancy decrease the chances for a c section and also an other interventions. I have slowed my running down to about 6 miles a week as per my doulas advice and I am focusing on more stretching and walking. But this is just me . I know women that run a race and then ran to the hospital from the finish line and gave birth. So don't worry.
Oh and yes I am watching the debate and typing this becasue I can't watch it with my full attention or I am afriad my water will break early.
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