People have been asking for my old blog here it is

http://katesun.blogspot.com/

Is there anybody out there? Just nod if you can hear me.

So much to update , don't know where to begin so this might be rambling. Lets see I am still with my first husband which is good. Rory put on a pound but not with out a 6 week fight 3 times a day. Rory is hilarious and makes me laugh everyday. She says things like "Mommy I am mad at you and this is me walking away from you" Oh and she sometimes calls me Kate when she is angry . I thought that is what teenagers do to their parents? Still looking for work, freelancing a bit but it is just not enough. Running is going ok. I mean I get in the miles but not the quality I want. I really have to start going to practice again . In a few days we start our summer vacation which includes Jersey Shore, Ohio, Michigan and Maine. Oh and we are moving ....again. 4 blocks away

The day started and ended the same

Decided to drive in the Manhattan and run 2 or 3 mile warm up. Breastfeed at 6:30am pumped out , out the door by 7:15am . Queensbourgh bridge had construction took me forever to figure it out finally got near the race and could not find parking or even a parking garage. Desperately I parked on the street . It was now 8:10am and you could not park on the street until 8:30am but the race started at 8:30am. So I left the car and took a chance . Only got about 1 mile warm up and got to pee. Race starts I felt tight and awful I believe I did it in about a 6:50 pace. I didn't want anything over 6:45 . I have to remember this is my first race back and I never quite got racing again after Rory but I am still disappointed . Especially because I think I have to cut back on the long runs . See link below for what I have been doing . I started it a week earlier then it calls for so I just doubled the second week. I think I will continue this schedule but not the long runs just do 10 miles at the most. Oh and yes I had a $45 ticket on my car .

http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-238-244--6851-4-2X5X8-4,00.html

ALso if you want to see what I am talking about . see this picture

Changes O'plans

In the past 2 days my milk supply has dropped dramatically. I am afraid it might be the running so I am just doing the race tomorrow with 2 or 3 mile warm up. I am sad becasue I don't like to veer off my schedule. I will see if skipping my long run for the week helps. Gwen is so big. She and Rory are in the same diaper size! I hope Gwen teaches Rory how to eat.

Runner's opinion

So what is everyones opinion on incorporating a race into a long run ? It is my first race since Gwen was born . Part of me wants to run the race straight and see where I am at (it is an 8k) Marc and I are in our third week of training . It is a pretty intense training schedule. I ran about 50 miles last week. Breastmilk seems to be holding up. But trust me it is not fun to breastfeed , pump out, run out the door run 15 miles and come back and try and breastfeed again. Anyway I have to do 14 miles . What do you think ?

1 year ago

Hi Baby Gwen

One year ago today I found out I was pregnant with you ! What a year ! We love you and are so happy you are part of our family.

You mean I have to tie my shoes each time I wear them

I am a horrible shoe tier. I do the bunny ears . So on runs my shoes come untied . SO when I do get a good tie on ... I leave it . And just slip my running shoes on . I know I know . So i run 30-40 miles a week on shoes that were probably last ties 2 weeks before. I didnt really think it mattered and then Marc today watched me hobble around in my running shoes he said "Kate your shoes are loose" "Yeah I know I never tie them" WHAT???!! SO I untied my shoe and tied it and it really made a difference . Trust me I am still in pain but I probably (hopefully) just sprained it . My first sprain.

All I had to do was make it till February

This is what I kept telling myself. January is always a tough month for me. February would be better . The baby older, the weather warmer. Just make it to February. I even registered for a 4 mile race on February 1st in Central Park. My grandma always said what you do the 1st of a month is how the rest of the month would go. So she would never schedule doctor appointments on the 1st. Yesterday I went for a 6 mile run careful not to run over any ice , came home and laid out my clothes for the race in the morning . Planned out my plan of pumping and running to the subway , which stop I would get off at ect.., And then I was carrying the baby to the changing table and all of a sudden a sharp pain coursed through my foot . I almost dropped the baby I could not walk . I don't know if I heard a pop or a crack or what the baby was crying and soon so was I . Marc came home a while later and I was beside myself . I can't walk across the room, I can't hold the baby or Rory . It feels like I broke it but how? So I sit this morning horrified should I go to the ER or should I wait and see . How will I get Rory to Music class ? How will I work at ABC all the way on the west side? All I had to do was make it to February and 6 hours before I might have broke my foot.

THoughts for the day

So today I was thinking Marc and I have been married for 4 years and 4 months . We have a 2 year old and a 3 month old . I have been either pregnant , breastfeeding , pregnant and breastfeeding and now tandem nursing for almost 3 years of our marriage. That is all . I really need to find a job.

Infant Probotics

I have to give a shot out to Sara who I call the baby whisperer .

http://custommademilk.wordpress.com/

Gwen had Thrush pretty bad , it seemed to come out of no where. Rory and I didn't have any symptoms. We were given Nystatin and were cleaning her mouth out 4 times a day but after a week it was worse and she wasn't feeding well. So I emailed Sara and she recommended infant Probiotics within 2 days the Thrush was gone ! and as you know she has been have digestive issues even those seem to be about 50% better. We give her 5 drops a day. So thank you once again Sara.

updates

Girls had check ups last week

Rory is 25% in weight !!!! Yeah that is a lot better then when we were told 5% . She is right around 50% for height .

Gwen is 75% for weight and height.

Rory was AMAZING at the doctors. When the doc asked to look in her ears she brushed her hair back so he could get in there. She opened her mouth when asked . And we she got a shot she just gave him a dirty look.

Gwen got 5 shots ! and cried but she was good too.

Let's see I think I have a freelance gig at one of the Networks that might yield up to 10 days of work a month YEAH!

Long Island Half May 2nd

I am going to start training for the Long Island Half. Doing a whole marathon is something I would love to do but right now I think the reasonable thing to do is train for a half. Also in the next few months I need to start really looking for work (for real this time) And I don't know what Marathon training would do to my breast milk . So I have a 1/2 training schedule and it is not much higher mileage then what I am doing already extra 10 miles a week. So I think it is doable.

The girls are great. Rory's vocab is really coming along. I went to get her this morning and I put her down and she said "bye bye mommy I go see daddy" and walked out of the room.

Gwen is great so calm , lots of smiles and loves her sister.

Marc is good and almost potty trained.

not much to report

just got back from doing 4 1/2 miles with the double jogger. The thing totals 75 pounds with the two girls. Trying to think of a running goal for spring any ideas ?

Job for a day

So for the past 2 weeks i have been applying to work . I didn't think I would find something so soon. Maybe late winter early spring but I knew I should start looking. I had basically told all my contacts I was done with the business but now that we decided to stay I thought I needed to find work and let them know I wanted to be back in the biz. I got a call Friday night from a Executive looking for a Production Manager for a new cooking show. She wanted to meet me Monday she was very busy and could not answer any questions at that time . I went in Monday morning had about a 10 minute interview. In which I explained I was a new mom , (they were moms too) Said I could work from home sometimes and basically offered me the job. The money was amazing , which was my first clue, It was as good as Colbert . They wanted me to start Tuesday , I asked for Wednesday start and they said fine as long as I could come to a tech meeting on Tuesday for 1 hour. OK . Oh and I told them I was breastfeeding , no problem we have an office you can pump in and a fridge. Wow , wow wow. Money , some time at home , good hours , nice people . The commute to the office was 1 hour door to door but in Jan we would move to Greenpoint in Brooklyn and if I drove it would be about 25 minutes . Wow Wow .


Then Tuesday morning around 5am I woke up and laid in bed. Something is not right , This is a start up (meaning a whole new show) the money is really good . I went to the office . Immediately one of the woman said I doubt you will be able to work from home things are really hectic we only have 2 weeks to get this show in the studio. Just to give you an example I started in mid July to launch Colbert Oct 17 2005. Then they give me the budget and then say in a whisper make a quick copy of this. See the guy over there he is the Production Manager on the show now but after the meeting we are going to fire him . We are telling him you are the coordinator . As I started to feel sick to my stomach I went to the copier . I looked at the budget and noted there was no coordinator line (so I assumed he did not have a copy of the budget yet) then I noted there was no EIC (executive in charge or even a line producer ) Then it hit me I was the production dept . There was the 2 executive producers and me . I have never worked on a show with 1 person in the production dept . There also was no show accountant which meant all start paper work payroll would be through be as well as accounting for all purchase orders .

Then the Production Manager came over and said I understand you are my new coordinator. First off the guy was super nice not upset at all that they had hired a coordinator he never even got to interview. I would be if I were him as the PM and PC really have to work well together and trust each other. Also he said he heard I just had a baby and he had a 9 year old son. Oh can you excuse as I went in the bathroom and literally got sick (in every way , sorry for the TMI) ok so now the meeting starts . And I sit next to the PM , he does really well and he actually knew more about equipment then me . I am sitting there thinking 1. this job is a bit over my head 2. I am never going to see my family until May . I was shaking during the meeting . Oh and before the meeting I asked where the room was I could pump in . It was the executive's office which meant I would have had to ask her to leave her office 3 times a day . Of course until we moved to Brooklyn then who knows what was out there. But there is no way she would be able to leave her office 3 times a day with all this going on.

So after the meeting I talked to the executive . I said you need a Strong Line producer for this . Have I lined produced a show . Yes once a 13 episode cooking show. And the facility we shot in had a engineer this one did not . They expected me to build a control room . The show is hosted by 3 women they only had 1 casted . Jan 5th start date to shoot and holidays coming. No set yet, 1 set design, they did have a crew but no rundowns , scripts or a real schedule of load in. She assured me that I would be fine but I said when I interviewed you said the hours would be x y z and there is no way . And she said "well we just really wanted you" So I came home , crying the whole way on the subway, I was angry at myself because I should have known better and I was also angry that they misrepresented the job. I came home and cried and cried to Marc. Who of course said I think you should take it , you will be able to come home at a decent hour . I said there is no way. He said have them put in your contract that you get to come home a few days a week at 6pm and you will work from home . THis is similar to Colbert although Colbert was established so it was rare I worked more then 1 night from home . So I emailed her , the answer was no that more likely I would leave work at 8pm . I was a mess there is no way I could continue breastfeeding which those hours , no place to pump. I know what you are thinking that in this economy I need to take what I could get but I can never get this time back. So I called her and told her I could not take the job. So yes I turned down a 6 figure job basically to breastfeed and spend time with my kids. Marc was not happy but eventually understood. I said you would not be able to run at all at night and that quieted him down .

I called a couple of mentors and they all basically said Kate something else will come along later when you are ready . Did I burn a bridge , I hope not . Will we survive , short term yes. I guess I am just not ready to go back to work. I mean with Rory I did when she was 7 weeks but I was able to come home after rehearsal started so i was home by 6 or 6:30 .

but because of all this I lost 6 pounds so I am only about 4 or 5 pounds away from pre prego weight.

So tell me am I crazy?

pattern

I am nervous to blog about this becasue I don't want to jinx it . G has been feeding now every 3 hours and will sleep from 9pm -2am and then from 3:00am till 7am. This is huge . We have gotten sleep for the past 4 nights and it has been great. Rory sleeps until about 4am and then crawels in bed till with us until 7am . I hope we have turned a tiny corner.

updates

G has some digestive issues . She was only pooping once every 2 days and was miserable . She would scream at the breast (probably because of my over supply) and strain for 1 to 2 hours after . THe doctor has to manually decompact her . We are now giving her 2 ounces of tea a day. I also have cut out caffeine , chocolate and diary out of my diet . I hope this helps . With Rory I could eat anything I wanted.

Rory is doing ok with the change. She stills sings "baby go out the door" over and over again. This is a song she made up after about a day of the baby being home. I tried to take them both to a toddler library class and it was a disaster . I really need to be one on one with Rory at the class not feeding the baby in the corner . I really need to figure out how I can take Rory and leave G with someone so she can get interaction with kids. Also we are trapped inside a bit more because of the baby so it is hard on her.

Marc and Kate are struggling . More fighting and sooo tired . We take shifts all night long and it is wearing on us. G needs special care after feeding / upright for over 30 minutes .

That is really about it.

doulas version of birth story !!

Gwenneth’s Birth Story


Kate and Mark called Suzanne on the morning of Monday, October 20, 2008 to report that Kate had been having contractions overnight. They were irregular and manageable, but consistently there! Suzanne told them to time out the contractions and call back in an hour. By the time they called back, Melani picked up the phone and was told by Kate that her water may have broken. The contractions were still irregular and bearable, so Kate continued to keep Melani posted until it was decided that Melani would come give Kate acupuncture at 12:30 PM to help increase the contractions.

Melani arrived at 12:30 PM to find Kate resting in bed and began the acupuncture treatment. After Kate’s treatment and an attempt at napping, Kate and Melani decided to go for a walk in the park while Mark played with Rory. From 2 to 2:45 PM, Melani and Kate strolled in the sun and then rested for 20 minutes on a grass field under a tree. While resting, Kate’s contractions increased in strength and were still irregular.

Upon returning home, Kate and Mark decided it was time to take Rory to her babysitter. Kate said goodbye to Rory, very aware that the next time she would see her daughter, they would be a family of four. Kate received another acupuncture treatment and massage while sitting on the birthball. When Mark returned home, Kate and Mark decided to go rest together in the park and Melani headed home. They would keep her posted on Kate’s progress and on their conversation with the doctor.

At about 10 PM, Mark called Ayla, the next doula/acupuncturist on shift and asked her to come over for support. Kate had been having contractions every 8 minutes or so since 5 PM in the afternoon and the contractions seemed to be getting much stronger and closer together. Kate was feeling worried and wondering whether it was time to go to the hospital.

Ayla arrived at around 10:45 PM and both Kate and Mark were tired from a long day. Kate was having some difficulty getting comfortable so she and Ayla experimented with different positions. Kate was also finding it hard to breath through her contractions so she, Mark, and Ayla practiced various breathing exercises. Despite their fatigue, both Kate and Mark were in high spirits, cracking jokes, and entertaining one another and their doula. Contractions were steady between 3 – 4 minutes apart for about two hours and Kate decided she wanted to go to the hospital. This seemed like a wise idea to everyone as this was a VBAC delivery and Dr. Worth wanted to be very cautious.

After a somewhat uncomfortable car ride, Kate, Mark, and Ayla arrived at St. Vincent’s at approximately 2 AM. At this point, it was determined that Kate was 1cm dilated and 60% effaced. This news was discouraging for Kate and she began to doubt her ability to follow through with her plans for a vaginal delivery. Another setback was the need to administer IV fluids. This worried Kate because she really did not want to be attached to an IV or have continuous fetal monitoring. Through all this, Mark was unwaveringly positive and supportive and encouraged Kate to stick to her plan. Ayla concurred that coming to the hospital had been a very wise choice and that, with some rest and fluids, there was every reason to believe that a vaginal delivery was possible. Aside from the very young and very tired resident with a poor bedside manner, the entire staff at St. Vincent’s was also very supportive and encouraging.

Together, Kate and Mark came to the decision to ask that Kate be given a dose of Demerol so she could nap a bit. At around 4 AM, Kate was given Demerol and the entire birth team took a short nap. It was still very difficult for Kate to breath through the contractions so over the course of the next two hours, Ayla coached Kate through breathing exercises to help her relax. By 6 AM Kate was breathing well and had found her power. When the new nurse came in at 7 AM, Kate said she wanted to be taken off the IV and allowed to walk around. Dr. Worth approved and Kate was taken off IV and the fetal heart monitor was removed. This was a big relief to Kate and she experimented with walking, sitting in different positions, and using the birth ball. Mark was helping by massaging her lower back during contractions.

At approximately 8 AM, Dr. Musali, came in to perform a second vaginal exam and it was determined that Kate was 80% effaced, and the baby had dropped significantly. She was still only 1 cm dilated but Dr. Musali was not worried about this. He explained that sometimes the first 3 cm of dilation take a very long time but after this point the labor can go very quickly. He told Kate that they were not in a rush and that she would have all the time she needed to progress. Dr. Worth came in an hour later and she too was very optimistic. Also encouraging was that both doctors agreed to let Kate have intermittent fetal heart monitoring, which would mean that Kate could walk around, and change positions for contractions.

Kate was disappointed by her lack of progress but both Mark and Ayla assured her that there was no reason to feel discouraged. Ayla reminded Kate that she had finally found a good breathing rhythm and that from now on she would likely feel much more relaxed. Everyone was on board for a vaginal delivery but it was clear that this would likely be quite a long day. Kate decided to ask for another 1/2 dose of Demerol to help cope with the pain and Ayla said goodbye to the laboring couple at about 9:30 AM.

Sharon arrived at 11:00 AM to find Kate resting peacefully between contractions. Since the early morning, Mark remained at Kate’s side and every 6 minutes he helped sit her up in order to breath through each contraction. Sharon joined in and both she and Mark together and taking turns, massaged Kate’s back and coached her through each contraction. Sharon made sure Kate had some ice chips after each contraction. The 9:30 AM Demerol dose allowed Kate to doze between contractions but as time passed, the analgesic effect began to wear off.

At 12:50 PM, Dr. Worth came in and performed another vaginal exam. Kate was at 3 cm dilated and about 90% effaced. Kate was discouraged by the results and the pain with contractions continued to increase. She had hoped she would be around 5-6 cm dilated for this is where she hoped to be before consenting to an epidural. Dr. Worth discussed with Kate, Mark, and Sharon the various possibilities of getting more Demerol, receiving an epidural, or opting for a C-section. Dr. Worth also suggested an internal monitor so Kate could remove the external monitor and allow for more position changes. Wanting to be more alert, Kate and Sharon discussed the idea of allowing the Demerol to wear off and labor without any intervention before deciding to get an epidural. Kate was in adamant agreement. She bravely experimented with different positions on the bed and labored for one and a half hours before getting the epidural.

Administered at 2:30 PM , the epidural took an unusually long time to set in so the anesthesiologist very accommodatingly stayed nearby to adjust the dosage. Of course, Kate’s offer of tickets to the Colbert Report for a job well done was also very alluring! By 3:30 PM, the epidural offered more pain relief, but Kate could still feel pain down the sides of her legs and the lower left portion of her belly. Dr. Musali came in to check on Kate and his calm, collected presence was very much appreciated by all parties. He continued to assert that there was plenty of room in Kate’s pelvis to go through with a vaginal delivery and that the baby was not too big. After discovering that Kate was about 4 cm dilated following a vaginal exam, Dr. Musali suggested Kate get a pressure catheter to measure the strength of the uterine contractions to ascertain why dilation seemed slow. After a thoughtful discussion, with the unwavering advocacy of Mark, everyone agreed that it was best for Kate to continue to strive for a VBAC and that the next best step was to redo the epidural to see if she could get more pain relief. At 6 PM, the epidural was re-set and by 6:30 PM, Kate received complete pain relief. A success! Kate fell into a deep sleep and even though Pitocin was conservatively administered at 7 PM, Kate continued to sleep soundly for the next 2 and a half hours without even waking during the contractions! Sharon rested along with Kate and although Mark may have intended to rest, he never took his eyes off the monitor and vigilantly watched each contraction as they increased in strength.

At 9:30 PM, Dr. Moon came in and performed another vaginal exam. To everyone’s surprise and delight, Kate was fully dilated and ready to push! Did Mark’s watchful eyes will full dilation? Kate, groggy from just awaking, was in disbelief. “Is this a dream?” she asked. But it was no dream. Soon, Rachel, the new nurse on duty, joined Dr. Moon, Mark and Sharon as they supported Kate through her first pushes. Dr. Moon immediately called Dr. Worth who raced to return to attend the birth. Although everyone wanted Dr. Worth to be present, Kate saw her chance and was determined to push still not believing that the baby was heading in only one direction: out! Soon, Dr. Worth arrived and pushing was underway. Kate holding her own legs, Mark and Sharon stationed on each side supporting her, Kate led the way as only she could feel when a contraction was coming on. Dr. Worth and Rachel took turns guiding Kate with when and where to push. Kate was a natural pusher. Even with decreased sensation from the epidural, she knew to push low and strong. Kate even requested the epidural be turned off so she could feel more.

After an hour and a half of beautiful pushes, on Oct. 21st, 2008, lovely Gwenneth joined her parents at 11:03 PM.

intermission

i will finish the rest by Saturday . Our doula is coming tomorrow and part of the package is that they write out a version of your birth story . So I want to read her version .

Anyway last Friday we took G to the doctor weight 6 pounds 4 ounces today 6 days later 6 pounds 15 ounces !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah !! I forgot how hard breastfeeding is in the beginning but I am hanging in there. More soon

Part 1

We are home. we got home 36 hours after the birth which was amazing . Rory is doing well and my milk came in last night . My only concern is G is sleeping so much and it is hard for me to wake her up to feed. But I can't really remember the first few days of Rory's life so I dont know if I am doing it wrong .



Birth Story:

So on Saturday Oct 18th I had an acupuncture appt with one of my doulas . I was pretty discouraged . She put in semi permanent needles in my ankles and my ear she also lanced my pinky toes and bleed them out to try and lower the baby. I used to hate needles but the thought of another c section overcame this fear. Sunday was a day of pineapple, sex , evening primrose oil , Clarey sage . Sunday night at 9:30pm the ankle points were really bothering me so I took them out . I started to feel contractions off an on but nothing really to get me hopeful. At midnight I decided to take out the ear points. THis started contractions at about 10 minutes apart and this lasted all night until 7am . I woke marc up who was out in the living room ( so I could labor alone and he could sleep ) and said I think this might be something and I was going to call the batphone which is what the doulas told me to call and one of them would answer.



I called and talked to Suzanne and she said to call back mid morning and someone would be out to give me a acupuncture treatment. At about 8:30am I went to the bathroom and that is when I realized my water had broke , not a gush but several trickles. I called back and Melanie answered I told her the news and she said she would be out at noon to give me a treatment. She came and did the treatment and then she and I went for a walk around Astoria Park . We then laid in the sun . My contractions where lessening to about every 14 minutes , then 8 minutes then 12 not rhythm and I was getting scared. Basically in America rule of thought is water breaks baby out in 24 hours. My doula told me not to call my doctor until after 5pm and tell her my water had just broken in a trickle to give me a little more time . She left around 4pm . Rory was picked up by our friend Salena around this time . This was hard to say goodbye. Knowing that when I saw her again I would be on the other side of things. A family of 3 no more , everything changed . But when I had a contraction she saw me in pain and this concerned her. She is the kid on the playground that if someone is crying runs up to see what she can do. Marc and I went for another walk and nothing happened , we laid in the sun and still nothing . At this point the contractions were still all over the place. I black berried my doctor that my water had broke in a trickle, who called me immediately. She wanted me to come in immediately since I was a VBAC. This upset me because the other Dr. had told me I could labor at home even if my water broke. So I told her I had no child care until Morning LOL. Who is 40 weeks pregnant and has NO childcare but I didnt care. I knew once I got to the hospital the interventions would start and my chances decreased. She was ok with that but said NO LATER THEN 8am !! With this news I relaxed and my contractions came on stronger. At 10pm the contractions were 8 minutes we called the Doula and Ayla came over we labored in the bedroom until about 2:00am when they were about 4 minutes apart we headed to the hospital . The ride was pretty intense I just kept holding on the the handle above the door . Marc hit a pot hole and I screamed at him. We got to the Hospital St. Vincents which is in the village in about 30 minutes. When we got to the hospital we met with the resident doctor who appeared to be about 16 years old and under 5 ft. She had to jump up and down several times to grab the light above her head and pull it down to examine me . She said "You are at 1cm" . WHAT ?!! 24 hours of labor and still 1 cm ! I wanted to cry and I begged to go home . After she left the room I did make a joke about being arrested for child molestation because she examined me and could not have been older then 18. Which I thought was pretty good for being in labor 24hour. Anyway the doula could not believe I was only 1cm. But this is what happened last time , this is what happened to my mom and my paternal grandmother . More to come ...

WE DID IT!!!

Gywneth Hussein born 11:03pm Oct 21st . VBAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Long story but I did it !! I never knew I had the strength. (Real middle name is Eleanor) Pictures to come !